It has rained and with that rain naturally comes garage sales. Sales everywhere. Guess that comes with summer too.

Last week I was looking at a church pew someone wanted to sell but when I decided to get it and went back for it, the sale had closed up. Wanted to get that mens bike too.

This week's hot sales were mostly old furniture and potty chairs. Honestly, I don't think anything leaves this town till it is in splinters. When something is no longer wanted it is just ...

So I finaly got an apointment with the London Clinic. The journey seemed to take forever although I did treat myself to 1st class seats on the train. London has got a lot bigger since I was last there !!

Sooo many new big towers now 0.0

Anyway the underground was just as exciting as normal and I simply love to travel on the trains.

So I got to the clinic and there is a well known coffee house right outside !!

Oh coffee is my life ^-^ ...

so-to-speak, and talked with my therapist about my last post.

Although it's only been one session of discussion, at this point the therapist agrees I'm probably somewhere in the middle of the gender spectrum. Which would partially explain why I never took action to transition before, since I always thought transition meant MtF only. I, like so much of the world, thought "either/or" in relation to gender.

That said, we are still on track for "the talk" ...

In my quagmire of minor hopelessness and mediocre jealousy, I've begun to think back over my childhood.

If my childhood occurred today, I would be, without question, labeled transgender MtF. I was the epitome of the sissy boy, playing with dolls, avoiding sports like the plague, even cross-dressing at every opportunity that presented itself. I also knew I liked boys. While neither was acceptable ... gay appeared to be the lesser of the "evils" as I saw it at the time. My ...

well i haven't posted in a while mostly because I still have testicles. I would be curious to know how long it took others to decide to be a eunuch and then how long it took to actually be castrated. My desire grows stronger all the time. It has been frustrating dealing with lack of funds and time. things are looking up however, I think I can have it done this year. scheduling is a problem as I have several other obligations and I would have a hard time canceling. I just keep looking at and ...